Upset, speechless, worry... When I get to see what my sis has blogged, I didn't even get a chance to finish my dinner. All my appetite has gone. Whatever that I have thought wasn't that true after all I guess. Things changes.. Sometimes people don't understand comething and doesn't want to ask directly. Even they worry about me, how would I get to know? It really upset me... Why can't my dad just ask me anything if he has doubt? Why must they always talk to my sis instead of ME!?!? I'm the one who involve NOT her. Damn fucking piss off. So maybe all along all those question brought up by my mom is bcos of my dad. You can ask me and I'm more then glad to answer anything to you.

There is something I can't agree when I saw this. Here she say "If you are always lonely without any bestfriend, when you got a boyfriend, he will become your everything" IT'S WRONG. To say the truth he is not my everything. He just become part of my life. I don't really like it cos she always like to assume what I'm thinking. You can know the person very well or even guess correctly what she/he thinking but its doesn't mean you can read her/his mind. Why would I rather go out than staying at home? When I'm at home I can do nothing and sitting near her its would only make myself a bother. Why does I always went to sleep after I came home? Because I don't wish to so-call make u uncomfortable with me around you looking at what you doing. Why I want to spend money to buy myself a pc? Because you say say you want space, I want to let you have own freedom of time using the computer without me stopping you. You no longer company nor entertain me. You are way too busy with your stuff. I told you I'm glad that now I can sleep well without you accompany to sleep, and you can move out to have your very own space. I know this day will come but I really never thought its so soon. Yea I no longer need to reply on you anymore, I'm glad. Too dependent on you always make me upset. Sigh... Surprise, surprise again. Fuck it.

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I went to ask my dad and hopefully I can ease his enquire. Well he get his answer and I'm satisfy. Things is always better if theres talk. So at least I get my piece o my mind.

Sex
1. The property or quality by which organisms are classified as female or male on the basis of their reproductive organs and functions.
2. Either of the two divisions, designated female and male, of this classification.
3. Females or males considered as a group.
4. The condition or character of being female or male; the physiological, functional, and psychological differences that distinguish the female and the male.
5. The sexual urge or instinct as it manifests itself in behavior.
6. Sexual intercourse.


Let's talk about sex... Lol. It can be something interesting, funny, exciting or even scary. Get to know some news or rather some true facts about some people. About this I'm kinda curious about how important is sex to a person. People start losing it at a young age, have they ever regret about it? Its somehow sensitive to talk about it but its something that everyone need to know. After hearing something from some people it make feel frighten about this issue. It become something unpredictable and scary. Some people could give up their partner just because they reject to have sex with them. Awww.. WTF.. I hate people like this. Well guess its human kind.

I had done this little Brokeback mountain thingy. I know the movie ended very long ago but I just wanna display my piece of art.



Dark days has finally come to an end, I see more lights. Bored so I decided to take soem quizes...

You Are A Bad Date!

Sometimes it just seems like your heart isn't in it At least, not unless the guy is a dead ringer for Brad Pitt (with more money) You just don't spend enough time wondering if he's having fun... And newsflash - he probably isn't!

OMFG! Its true I'm such a damn bad date. Haha.

Your Flirt Quotient

You are 27% Flirt

Wow. Its true too! Haha...

You Are a Sensitive Kisser

For you, kissing is a way to connect And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy It may take you a while to kiss someone... But when you do, it's total fireworks

The Only Thing You Play is "Cool"

It's not that you don't have the skills to juggle a few men� Nope, you just lack the desire. You prefer dating to be a simple one on one process. No games, no other people, no drama - just you and the guy you're getting to know.

Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge

You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel

You Are 34% Independent

You're a little independent, but overall you tend to follow the crowd. Fitting in is more important to you than you may realize.

You Are A Relationship Rescuer!

You don't ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together The key: you respect yourself and your guy. Which goes further than you might think. You simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule. And in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. And how perfect is that

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Your Love Song Is

Thankyou by Dido "And I want to thank you for giving me The best day of my life Oh, just to be with you is having The best day of my life." It's all good, as long as you're in love.

Your IQ Is 85

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Average Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Average

Your Dating Purity Score: 84%

You are an innocent dater. You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship. Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample!

Thats all folks!

Fianlly I get a chance or have the time to blog again. I dont care if anyone see any of my post anymore. This is just for my memory.. lol.. For this few weeks, alot of things have happen and change. Its really hard to just say it within a few mins. I might already forgotten most of them, I might just say how I feel.

At least for now I dont really think life suck that much now. But its still not easy to live on. Lol. Soon I going to be out of job again. Sigh. Always get headache when talk about this. I wil just see how things goes. I hard to plan as to me my plan always fails or not to what I expected. So y plan when it will fail. Lol.

Every thing moves and change so quickly. I could hardly catch my breath. Sometimes I really hate changes. Why must things change? Things aint gonna stay the same. I wish I will always be a baby, being innocent and know nothing about this world. I must admit sometimes I still have the kind of thinking that I doesn't want to live on this earth, wishing to end it. Its impossible and I definately know its silly to think about it. Living everyday is like living on fear everyday, cause you will never know what things gonna happen. I don't like surprise, but still I have to have to face it.

Some news that I have know recently really surprise me. So surprising that I nearly couldn't take it. But I know its part of life and I accept it. I'm weak, weak in everything. I'm too dependent on people and at the same time I'm afraid to get too close to them. I don't like the feeling of losing it. It's very heartaching. I guess even I have mental prepare for it, I might still break down.

In order reduce stress, I play games. It just give me a feeling of living in a virtual world where things just look so simple. Have fun, enjoy and no worries. Isn't it nice? This world is so cruel, it make people to live on. I dont wish to carry on. Its useless to think that much as world won't change, its us who change the world. I just wish to stay like this. Nothing is gonna change about me. Ciao! Peace out!